I’ve been a bit bogged down in daily life stuff around here and so haven’t posted any new blogs on mid-life stuff, menopause or perimenopause for that matter. I found myself so overwhelmed with clutter and disarray that I had to push back a few things to tend to the matters at hand in front of me – getting my life in order.
I’m one of those sensitive creatures who is highly affected by her environment. I’m a prime candidate for the Feng Shui hoo-ha, aroma therapy and even light therapy for that matter. The wrong kind of lighting, positioned in just the right (or wrong) way can have a deleterious affect on me in record time. So, imagine how chaotic my internal compass felt when I found myself knee deep in unfinished projects, laundry and basic life clutter that seems to grow (much like coat hangers) exponentially with three children, one wife, one husband, 2 cats, 2 dogs & 2 birds.
It’s been nothing short of a holy war around here with my determination to plow through unnecessary baggage and fill up the recycling bins, garbage cans and boxes to haul to the second hand stores.
I’ve always done better, it seems, with just a few things to manage. I’m not a good juggler and become quite stressed when I’m not able to focus well on something. I always feel that something is left undone (and it usually is) when I have too many irons in the fire.
So, that is my main excuse for not being here and keeping the blog alive with new and exciting posts on hormone adventures. I’ve been distracted by life I suppose you could say.
My family also learned that someone we all know fairly well had recently died. He was only 51 years old and left two children and a wife. That he died at such a young age was, in itself, very sad and it affected my entire family to hear of the news. But, when we learned that he had taken his own life we were doubly shocked and saddened.
He was such a wonderful man and had kind words and plenty of love to share with everyone – especially his children and wife. So, we just couldn’t believe, nor did we want to, that he would become so distraught or that he would despair so much in this life that he felt he had to end it. But, apparently he did and it is still too difficult to imagine.
So, amid my clutter (and de-cluttering), rearranging and demands of daily life with my family, there has been a bit of grief as well. Another reminder that this life is fleeting and that perhaps we shouldn’t spend so much darn time wasting it on unnecessary subterfuge; be it ridiculous emotional hang-ups, too much materialism or stupid, unloving & unkind attitudes.
We have a tendency to think that death is for others. That doesn’t change when you reach middle-age either, though it does begin to sink in just a wee bit more that your own number will soon come up. The self-protecting padding that we line our minds with begins to wear thin in middle age (along with our hair, bones and skin). And the reality that death will come knocking on all of our doors soon bears down on us. Maybe that is a good thing frankly, because it inspires us to seize the day, the moment and the hour to be thankful, appreciative and to give love to those that matter to us the most – at least, that’s how I tend to respond to it.
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Next week I will be interviewed on Feisty Radio with Eileen Williams from The Feisty Side of Fifty. We will discuss blogging, middle-age, menopause, perimenopause and who knows what else for approximately 15 minutes. The interview will take place on Tuesday October 20th. I will link to it so you all can hear it and finally put a voice to the words you’ve so faithfully read these past couple of years and the face that has greeted you upon each visit. 
It should be fun and I’m looking forward to it.
I’ll be back with everyone soon.
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Sorry to hear about your family friend Mags. Death in any form is painful but a suicide is especially distressing. I wish you and your family peace as you come to terms with this loss.
Thanks Cheryl. It is sad indeed. He was such a wonderful man and loved God so much. It’s just too hard to fathom what could have pushed him over the edge like that. It just didn’t seem to be within his character – which makes it even more difficult to understand.
I’m still reeling from my girlfriend’s daughter who was shot and killed by her newlywed husband 1 week before her 21st birthday at the beginning of this year. He just recently went to prison for 5 years.
Just not a happy day.
Hope you’ll stop over to listen to my interview with Eileen next week.
I too am sorry to hear of your many recent losses. This life seems too short sometimes. I do look forward to the return of Christ and a chance to see those loved ones again. May God Bless you richly and abundantly.
Hey Peg,
I’ve been thinking about you this week. Wondering how you’re doing and realizing that we’ve not gone out to lunch. My bad.
The guy that died is a believer in VA. We were pretty close with them and still can’t figure out why in the world he would do what he did. It just didn’t make sense.
anyway. Thanks for stopping by.
First of all there probably is no reason behind what he did, except for that we live the advisary’s kingdom and his mission is to lie, cheat and destroy.
Second there are 2 of us involved in the lunch scheme.
Remember both God and I love you.
Just popping in to say Hey.
Been thinking about you.
I hear you on the clutter chatter. Not much makes me twitchier.
Going to try to get the old house on the market in the next couple of weeks; hopefully I’ll be a blogger again after that.
Love ya!
Been thinking about you too Cherie. Thanks for stopping by. I knew you were busy with “stuff” as we all are.
I keep dreaming of a dark cave where I can sit “nekkid” and listen to the sound of my own breath.
sorry to hear what happened…… feeling overwhelmed means taking time off. Sometimes it is too much what we can handle.
Everything I do around the house leaves me exhausted.
I, also, am going through another phase, which is crashing fatigue and thank God, I work at home. Otherwise I would have not been able to go to work
It’s so discouraging!
I’m glad to hear that you will be taking time off. Lookign forward to have you back soon!
much love and hugs,
Anna
Hello Anna,
Yes, feeling overwhelmed is a common feeling of mine it seems. I too feel fatigued a lot, especially when that dasterdly cycle keeps coming around and doesn’t seem to get the hint that I’m not interested.
I do my housework and chores in chunks. I used to be able to clean my house in no time flat. But, those days are long gone. I work for an hour or so, then take a break. Work for another hour, take a break, etc. It’s the only way I can get anything done. Otherwise I would just want to sleep all day.
I’ll be back soon. Family demands and other personal demands require that I step back for a little while.
But, don’t worry. It’s only temporary.
See you soon!